Insanity

I have been working, really and completely literally, every single day and will be until Saturday.  And even when I am not working, I have things to do and people to see...Saturday the little brother is graduating and all that fanfare will occur.

And then there's the guy.  He's pretty much fantastic and we are loving every minute of being together...

So, this is just a briefing to say that I have lots to tell you and beautiful things to write about but I have really not had the time (and well, haven't had much ambition to when I'm off hanging out with him).

So, lovelies, I'll talk to you soon...

;)

Here Come the 123s...

Or 71, 72, 73s...

More stuff you never felt the need to know about me!

71. I have this paranoia about throwing things I'll need away.  Not in that way that people end up with all this stuff they don't need in their house all pack-rat like, but I literally mean, "Oh crap, that was my phone that went in the trash with all the other stuff I just threw away."  I  always make double sure that my keys are in my pocket when I go to take trash to the dumpster, etc.

72. I have things on my mind all the time to add to this list that seem to float away from my remembrance the minute I sit down to write an installment...

73. I will go to pretty much any live show someone invites me to or I happen to stumble upon.  I adore live music, and if the music isn't all that good...it's still live music and it makes me happy.  I don't think anything will change that ever (not that I'd want it to).

74. I have a new best guy friend that I'm not sure how I got along without.  He's tons of fun and his name is G.  The coolest thing about him is that I don't ever feel like I need to explain myself, I can say the craziest things that just pop into my head and he gets it.  Basically, he's like the male version of yours truly...scary, yes.  People keep asking if we're dating, and the answer is no because we're that much alike.

75. I own Backstreet Boys imports, you know, the CDs that have different songs on them because they were released in Europe and not here...this is more of a confession than anything.  I was big into them for awhile...and I still like them (this will be used against me now, I know...).

76. Sometimes it takes me forever to open my mail.  It just collects in a pile until I remember I need to open those envelopes and see what's going on.

77. I have been known to just buy new underwear instead of doing laundry because I didn't have any clean ones for the next day...often.

78. I'd much rather let someone else drive on most occasions.  However, there are only a handful of people that I can sit back and not tell them what to do the whole time or make comments on what they're doing.  In other words, there are only a couple I won't hesitate to hand my keys to if I don't want to drive and I trust them.

79. Dishonesty is kryptonite to any type of relationship I'm in, friends, family, or boyfriends.  I hate when people lie to me or aren't completely honest about what's going on.  I tend to shut down when people do that to me and it may be the one thing that prevents me from reaching out to someone.  I just don't deal with it.

80. I hit the lock and unlock buttons about a zillion times before and after I get out of the car.  Because, you know, I have to be absolutely sure I locked or unlocked the car.

That's all for today, lovelies.  See you next time...

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And baby girl you so may-ja'

They should front page-ya

God bless the parents that made ya...

-- Fabolous, "Make Me Better"

Things I Am Excited About Tonight:

(In no particular order).

The Office is all new

Tofutti and reisling all for me

Two new magazines to read

The house all to myself

Anticipation of good things tomorrow

My MacBook Pro (still)

Being me (always)

Little Post, Big Thoughts

So I just realized that I start a lot of sentences with "so."

Anyway...I'll be posting a tad hastily today because I have about thirty minutes before I have to leave my trusty spot at the Drunken Monkey and be somewhere else.  It will be a nice change though as I hope the next spot is warmer (ice cold air conditioning and a vegan milkshake do not make for a toasty Alexis).  I do wish I had a bit more time because I've got a lot on my mind and nowhere to put it.

Have I mentioned how very delicious the vegan milkshakes at Drunken Monkey are?  They're amazing.

On to the big stuff.

So (See?  There I go again) I posted recently about the loneliness that creeps up on me, and while that still rings true I feel the need to point out that I'm not one to settle.  I'm actually incredibly picky and it takes a lot to wow me into forming a crush or getting an inkling of like.  I pretty much know what I'm looking for, and if I don't see it you're out of luck.

I also don't really plan on jumping head first into a crazy relationship just because I don't like being all alone.  Especially because, hello, I've got approximately six months to go before I've moved to another country.  And while the moving to another country thing hinders a few things, I don't think it ruins my chances of starting something here before I go (iSight and iChat exist for a reason).  I bring this up because someone mentioned it to me the other day in context of "What will you do if...?"

What will I do?

I will hope that the person is worth making long-distance work, that's what I'll do.  Because that's one of a few options.  The others being...break up or he can frickin' move to London.  Basically, as to wondering if I fell madly in love with someone in six months and they asked me not to go I know that I'd say they shouldn't have asked and then get on the plane.

As much as I would love to be in a relationship, I can't manage to not be irritated at the thought of my whole life revolving around one.  I lost my individuality and lost sight of myself with the last one I was in and I very much refuse to allow that to happen again.  A good relationship allows that other person to be who they are and do what they have to do.  The process of getting back to myself after that messed up relationship (it didn't start off that way, but it went sour the closer it got to the end) was just so long and draining and I wouldn't want to do it again...especially because that would mean getting myself into another relationship that has to end because it's bad in order to get to the point of needing to get over it.  It would be a vicious cycle and you see where I'm going with this.

Anyway...I have to go but that's been on my mind and I wanted to get it out because, my dear readers, I know quite a few that empathised with that loneliness post and I want you to know that you should not have to sacrifice yourself in order to get rid of loneliness.  Plus, just because you're in a relationship doesn't mean you won't end up feeling lonely sometimes anyway...

Mwah!  I'll write something more eloquent soon...

Hey, y'all!

I hope I'm back with a vengeance.  My Macbook Pro arrived via FedEx today and it's so pretty. 

I know it's not just pretty, it has so much more to offer.  I can't wait to have it fully set up with everything.  I need to get a bunch of stuff transferred and taken care of, but I've been getting all the little things done.

It's terribly exciting.

So, hopefully regular posting will resume and I'll be blowing your mind with the literary magic I spin here.

Mwah!